A Peace Of Light

It's sad to say that I grew up in a dysfunctional home, my parents would kill me if they knew I said that. But the truth is we just a lack of communication and if we were conversing it was more like an argument, pointing fingers, insulting one another, etc.. That was my definition of what a family was like until I experienced how my friends families were like. Some of them grew up with single moms or dads, parents were divorced or in the process.

It took me until I became a christian to realize how blessed I really was. My parents are still together after twenty something years (I can't remember how long)  and they bend over backwards for me and my older sisters. They did everything they could to raise us right, encouraged us to go to college and funded our education with their hard work. But we were rebellious anyways we took it all for granted and still do at times. 

When I wrote this poem a year ago, I was alone in my apartment reading a Psalm 34 and as usual after I read something in the bible I sit a think for a while trying to make the connection.  At the time my parents were going through a rough time and I began to lose faith that they will ever change. Psalm 34 brought me out of that faithlessness and helped me remember that God rescued me and that he is able to do the same for my family.  

A Peace Of Light 

Early on I think we tried to be a family

something wasn't right, we'd always argue with profanity

when nothing changed that drove you to insanity 

one of us ran off, but they really couldn't handle me

they are not to blame I take credit for my shame

I would escape with a dub of some Cush to the brain 

so that could mean... that I'm the same 

selfish, what I built was exposed by the flames

I'm enticed and I entertain that emotion

I am weak, I like to lose my mind on the potion 

set my feet, but I'm being lifted by the notion 

disappear, then they start to question my devotion 

Who am I to get hype and be upset like a fool 

I escaped the lavish life of sipping whiskey by the pool 

AND I have the nerve to say that life is cruel 

I got a roof, plenty food, and I'm registered in school 

God Bless

Rafa

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